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Monday January 05, 2004
PPA sucks
Yes, it does. And I'm sick of it.
Today I found out I got put into chemistry with a whole bunch of McClintock kids and five from PPA (only two of which I know well). There's nothing wrong with MHS, mind you, but it's the principle behind the thing. I've been in a class with a certain group of people all year. Now, suddenly, you're switching me when the rest of them get to stay together? And don't give me that shit about balancing classes, they're not balanced anyway! Why can't you squeeze two or three more into the class when that's how many there were in Academy Chemistry anyway? There's no good reason that I can't be in second hour along with the rest of the class. Why the hell are you sticking me in fourth hour chem?!?
I know it's not a big deal or anything, but it's the straw that broke the camel's back. I've had enough. PPA sucks. It has sucked all year. I stand back sometimes and look at the school and ask myself, "THIS is what we've been fighting for? THIS is why I've gone through emotional trauma and faced the hatred of thousands of people in the district? THIS is what I gave up my friends for?" It's not worth it. None of this has been worth it.
I told you I never would regret the decision to come to PPA. I still don't. What I do regret is sticking around. This year, I should have gone full time South Mountain Community College instead of sticking around here to be abused and treated like a statistic. Because that's all we are, statistics.
Anyway, I'm considering dropping all my morning classes and going to South Mountain for half the day. I mean, I would drop all of them except I'm too far behind in physics (7th hour) to go to SMCC Phys, and I love the english class (6th hour). Just morning works well because all I'd have to take would be chemistry. That would also mean I wouldn't get any periods with Ty, and that I wouldn't get design tech, but it's worth it. I guess, in a way, dropping would be a form of protest. If I could protest this any other way, I would. But I have no idea how to. Everyone seems like they're against us, even our allies.
Bleah. I don't even know why I'm so worked up about this. I mean, in the wide scope of things, it's nothing. Big deal. I get into a class with people I don't know. And I guess if it was just this, I wouldn't care. But everything for the past three years. Everything I've worked for and everything I've believed... All of it being a lie. I don't know if I can handle that anymore.
And on top of that, something else happened yesterday that alone would make me really sad. And I'm not going to tell you because it's private. But it sucks. Really.
*sigh* I don't know what to do anymore. There's no one left to talk to either. Ms. Earl listens, sure, but she doesn't do anything. Mrs. Boles too. It's almost as if they listen just to make us feel better, then forget everything we said five minutes later. I dunno if that's true or not, but it sure as hell feels like it. Everytime we go to them with a problem, we're assured it will be solved. And you know what? Nothing ever comes out of it.
Basically, screw PPA. Screw this district. I'm sick of being thrown around like nothing. We should have been closed down last year. In all honesty, it would have been better than what we're going through now. Not just me, all of us.
Edit: Vicki's entry expresses everything very well and consisely. Like her, I've given up. PPA is dead. It's dying. I don't give a damn. We should've closed last year so everyone would at least know what to do. Read it here
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